"Words that forever change your life"

Today  I overheard my daughter Monica talking to a counselor at a new college she is wanting to start.  The counselor was asking her general questions about what she was wanting to go to college for, the classes and credits that she already has from Cleveland State and then she was talking about her family and I overhear Monica say "when my sister died, well she didn't actually die, she was killed"....Those words are the same words I have heard myself speak so many someone dies, they die of natural causes, old age, cancer, premature birth, and the list goes on and on. But when is "killed", their life is cut short by something or someone else, a car accident, shooting, beaten, head injuries, anything but a natural cause. When someone you love is killed, you feel so cheated of the time that you thought you should have had with them. You don't understand why their life was cut short. Even "why did God choose to take them like this". I also believe that the grief process is so much different. Most of the time when someone is Killed there are no answers on why or how it has happened. Many times we are left without answers, without closure, and most of all we are left without the person we love while the person who took their life goes on with theirs. When someone is killed and instantly snatched from your life you are left angry and bitter. You don't know how you are supposed to go on without this person.

I guess what i am saying is the next time you hear someone say "so,and so died or so and so was killed" please think of the difference between the two and how it has affected this person and their family. There is a BIG difference between the two and you may never understand for yourself until you experience it yourself..

Mother and Child

Just wanted to share a few pictures of Daughter Monica and Mr.Bronson...I love them both more then i can ever say and he has brought so much happiness to our life in just 7 wks..

How peaceful is this!!!

Monica and Bronson!!!

This was made for her Sister...it shows her "in Loving memory" tattoo

I feel like a new person!!!

After a week and one day of fighting Staph and Cellulitis in my nose I feel like a new person.  Thank You Dr. Delaney..you're the best!!!! This all started last saturday when i woke up an swore that Donnie punched me in the nose in my sleep.  It was so sore that i couldn't even touch the skin it was so tender. So then i think, "ok, maybe i am getting a sinus infection, but 2 days later still no cold and my nose is swollen HUGE and I mean HUGE!! Kinda felt like Marcia Brady when she got hit with the football. So not wanting to go to the doctor and sound stupid saying "can you help me, my nose hurts". I called my niece who is a nurse and ask her. She said yes there can be many things wrong ,you could have MRSA and some other things, so i decided to go to the doctor and sure enough by then it was REALLY bad so i had to be put on Septra DS for the staph and keflex for the cellulitis and said that if i didn't see a change or continued to get worse by friday come back. so the next day i was back because now my left eye was swollen too :( Well that doctor didn't do anything, if i knew his name i would sure put it in here but let's see at Physicians plus there  Dr. Maza, Dr Delaney and That other nasty, mean disrepectful man. Any way, he treated me like a piece of garbage that he could care less whether i lived or died and really shouldn't be doctor, but that's another story. if i find out his name i will blog about the experience my daughter and myself have had with him. Any way's i go home not getting any better on Thursday. On Friday i go back because once again i am much worse on this day. This is the day my lifesaver came. I saw Dr. Delaney and she was absolutely wonderful. She was caring, she listened to everything i had to say, she ask me many questions. and she didn't pinch my nose and say "does this hurt" like Dr. Disrespectful did ( and then said well don't touch it). When all was said and done she was gonna give me a shot and change one of my meds and put me on another .. now i am on Septra DS 2x's a day, Clindamycin (2caps.3x's a day) and prednisone (2 tab. 1x a day) . so she really doubled and triples my meds plus put me on alot stronger ones and when i woke up saturday, i had a left eye.....yippy!!!! Now it is sunday and i have a nose back...I mean a real shape with a bridge, nostrals and everything!!! Thank you Dr. Delany and all the wonderful people at the Medicine Shoppe Pharmacy (just a little free advertising Endo...lol) Seriously though, Endo, Amanda, Ashley, Angie, and my wonderful daughter (even though she is on maturnity leave, she call the boss to tell him we were on our way and not to close because I needed my meds asap). I still have 5 to 7 days on the meds and i am taking them all just as directed and hopefully, no more staph or cellulitis for me!!!!

p.s. if you ever wake up and your nose hurts like heck. please go to the doctor...this could be you!!!