So it's been a long time since i blogged..still trying to figure out if i want to continue with the grief blog part...as i said before it was alot harder then i expected. So that being said, this weekend the family and i went camping. This was Bronsons 2nd  camping trip and we had a great time. Monica's boss Endo even came to stay one night with us. On saturday Harley's step sister Jami got married Monica, Bronson and myself left the campground to go to the wedding, which brings me to this post. I look on my facebook yesterday and this is what i found..oh, the tears started to fall, hard and fast, been a long time since i cried that hard and missed Harley that much. It touched my heart that on Jami and jason's special day, she thought of Harley and how she should have been there to share the occasion with us all.. i didn't know that Jami had done this so you could imagine my surprise when i saw them so here are the pics that she posted..hope you enjoy.

this is jami placing what would have been Harley bouquet to carry in her wedding if she would have been here with us.

jami standing at Harley's grave

Jami putting a bow from her wedding on the post at Harley's grave.

Jami and Jason Walking to Harley's grave site..Don't they look great walking in the cemetery.. still in full wedding attire 

The back side of Harley's headstone..inscribed in a quote she had written.

Jami and jason having a little talk with harley before placing her bouquet on her site....I love you baby girl!!!

A long time

(Me and Monica on vacation 2009)

So it has been a while since i have written on my blog. But i had talk to my dear friend Julie today and she shared with me how she had read my blog and cried..I told her that i didnt realize how hard it would be blogging about my Grief Process. I just thought it would be a good healing process until i started and then realized just how hard it was to relive those days. I promised her that i was gonna continue with the blog and finish it someday...may take me a while but i know that this is a good healing process and i told Julie that if she cried too then i didnt feel as if i was carrying the burden alone...she could cry with me. So in the near future i will gather some of my journals back up, pull some of those ugly, nasty feelings and emotions that i went through back up and i will continue my blogging and my grief journal.